Digging into John.

Today I started something I have been wanting to do for awhile.  My plan is to study John slowly by digging into two or three verses a day dependent on time.  So today I read through John 1, and then dug into verses 1 and 2.  There was so much more there than even what I found in my time this morning, so I can see this may end up getting dragged out longer.

Anyway, here are my thoughts from today.

Wow, just reading through John 1 stirred such an awe and wonder of our God.  How amazing He is!!!  Makes me so excited about what He has to show me through this journey.

John 1:1 - This always blows me away, Jesus always was, God always was.  So often in this world, people call those who believe silly, crazy etc but how is it these books are altogether in the bible and oh so connected.  Just looking at cross references to "the beginning" and there is Proverbs 8:22-31 talking about God's wisdom being there from the beginning, but it just encompasses yet another most amazing part of Him.  His wisdom rejoiced in Him creating this world, how equally we should rejoice in Him.

Rev 21:6 - And He said to me, "It is done!  I am the Alpha and Omega, the Beginning and the End.  I will give of the fountain of the water of life freely to him who thirsts."  Not only was He the Beginning, He is the End but He freely gives to us who thirst.  How I want to thirst for Him!

John 1:2 - Interestingly, I read KJV and NKJV and KJV said the same was in the beginning with God and the NJKV said He was in the beginning with God.  This just highlights to me how much I need to remember that God, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit can not be viewed in the same light as man.  It is with awe and wonder I need to view them.  It is not my own preconcieved ideas that will show me that awe and wonder.  It is His fountain of the water of life that will bring that awe and wonder.


Perhaps this is a little haphazard, but the Lord just was really reminding me that He is God, He is the one in control.  Everything I need I only need to turn to Him.  What an amazing Lord we have!!!

Complete trust and reliance on the Lord!!!

Lord, it's been an interesting week here as you know.  I am so grateful to know who have all of this in your hands and in your control.  Lord, I really ask that you will be glorified through it all. 

I am still blown away Lord, that you made those appointments for me.  How did I ever deserve such a loving God, who is watching my back even when at times I pull away.  I don't know what will happen, I keep thinking in a human way and worry so for my husband and children if this turns out to be worse than we think it is.  Help me to keep my eyes upon you through this.  I am so not worthy of your love and mercy, but I know that you provided the way for me to have a relationship with you and I am ever so grateful. 

I have placed this in your hands and each time I waver, I will come to you because I know you are the reason I live. 

Oh My Lord, My King, My All

Crazy is an understatement, but things have been crazy for the last wee while.  Many changes in our life, job changes, health changes, family dynamic changes.  But through all of this the Lord has been faithful and has carried us through them.  The sad thing is that still I want control.  I want to know what the outcome will be, I want to know that my children are behaving as they should, I want to know that we have enough money in the bank.  I want to make sure that I do things so that certain things will happen.

Oh how I know I need to hand this desire of control over to the Lord, but how can I when so often my heart is not His.  I'll give it to Him for periods but then I want the control again so I take it back.  Lord, forgive me for wanting to hold onto my heart.  I know that the only way to live is with you in me, and you being glorified through me.  Guide me Lord, I ache to be single minded.  I know you have such plans for me, and I know you are working in me all the time.  Help me to worship you, pray to you, and seek you.  May I seek you for only you, and all of you.

My heart is burdened for so many, even those who appear to be tackling life well and successfully.  I ask that you Lord are glorified in every corner of this earth, and that all will realise that to live for you, is to allow you to do what you need to do. 

Search me Lord, clean me Lord, renew me Lord, so that I am one with you.

Beginnings!!!

New Beginnings

Beginnings are such a funny thing, I never know how long it is for.  This blog is going to be my journal, my record of the thoughts, the revelations and the 'aha' moments I receive from my Lord.  I'm beginning this as it has been on my heart for a long time.  I am not the best at writing in a journal, but typing is something I can do and can keep up with what is running through my head.  This is my place to allow the thoughts to come out, to give me time to think more on things, to seek the Lord and His will for my life.

I am blessed beyond measure, for the Lord has my heart, and I know He is in control.  He is the one that I can turn to each and every day, each and every moment of the day.  He is my redeemer, He is my all in all.  Words can not express the joy I feel each time I think of Him, each time He reveals a little more of Himself to me. 

I am on an amazing journey with Him.  A journey with new things every morning. 

Lord, you are my all in all.  Fill me with more and more of you each and every day.  May you become more and I become less.  Thank you for your precious word, for your revelation and for the transformation you are doing in my heart.  May this journal be yours, filled with you, filled with your heart.  Glorify yourself my King.