Crazy is an understatement, but things have been crazy for the last wee while. Many changes in our life, job changes, health changes, family dynamic changes. But through all of this the Lord has been faithful and has carried us through them. The sad thing is that still I want control. I want to know what the outcome will be, I want to know that my children are behaving as they should, I want to know that we have enough money in the bank. I want to make sure that I do things so that certain things will happen.
Oh how I know I need to hand this desire of control over to the Lord, but how can I when so often my heart is not His. I'll give it to Him for periods but then I want the control again so I take it back. Lord, forgive me for wanting to hold onto my heart. I know that the only way to live is with you in me, and you being glorified through me. Guide me Lord, I ache to be single minded. I know you have such plans for me, and I know you are working in me all the time. Help me to worship you, pray to you, and seek you. May I seek you for only you, and all of you.
My heart is burdened for so many, even those who appear to be tackling life well and successfully. I ask that you Lord are glorified in every corner of this earth, and that all will realise that to live for you, is to allow you to do what you need to do.
Search me Lord, clean me Lord, renew me Lord, so that I am one with you.
